holiday drag....

ok, so anyone who knows us, knows we're totally inconsistent around this time of year. some rare years we'll go overboard and get everyone presents that they'd really like, you know, the well thought out ones that you spend tons of time on finding b/c you remembered they said they wanted one of those 4 years ago in a drunken stupor? yeah, those. or at least everyone will get gift cards to supplement any slips... and most years, we don't get you anything! mostly because we're slackers, not that we don't care about you, we just didn't realize that it's december 16th and there's not funds available since we worked on the house so much, oh shit!

well, this is one of those off years so don't get us anything. i'm baking mini loaves of bread (from the box) and have a little crochet/knit bug up my ass but other than that, we're not hitting everyone on the lists so sorry ahead of time.

i know with the kid coming we're going to have to be more consistent with everything, not just holidays, but an overall routine. this concept is kinda weird, i don't think i actually have a routine for myself from day to day. i just don't know how to do this gracefully with a dad that is awake from 10am-3am and types 14 hours a day and a mom that sometimes works 3 days a week and some freelance and can stay up until 1 maybe... but gets up by 7. when are we going to sleep? before the kid goes to school, i don't think he's gonna have much of a routine! and is the kid going to really remember those first two years as far as holiday stuff goes, whether he had a xmas tree up or went to his grandpa's to open presents? i don't remember shit before i was like, 4 or 5 at least!

you all know i know we'll be fine...we'll figure some routine, we'll have memories galore, it just makes me feel almost inadequate as a mother since we're so bad at traditions and routines ourselves, then i realize, we're happy with our half-assed-ness. we keep in touch with those we love and wish them well. we may not do proper thank you notes or christmas cards but we think of you all, all the time, especially at the holidays. so know that we'll try now that we have a kid so we can teach him, but take it easy on us as first.