Rice Krispies commercial where the towhead kid tells his mom what he hears...
Watching kids play, particularly little boys lately- they're so freaking cute and they say the funniest things!
Telling my friend's 4 yo daughter not to poke the big lcd tv (I cried all nite at the fact that I yelled at her and I wouldn't make a good mom... see below)
Other people's babies- was in Target and heard a newborn wail and started to cry.
Thinking about babyproofing the whole place... tears...
Looking at baby names...
Don't get me wrong, the worst of the crying was that night I doubted my mom-ability. The others are more like tears welling up. I had felt so guilty for yelling NO! at her. I realized I have no real experience with kids. Maybe a very little bit with random kids and our niece but I'm an only child in a pretty small family. Even if I read all these sites and books, how can I gaurantee that I'll be a good mom?! I used to admire my Dad's way of thumping a kid's forehead to shut them up but now, I realize I can't do that, dammit. He had even said that I would prolly be a good mom if not just a little obsessive. So, can I really do a new life good? I woke up sobbing at 6am, after falling asleep after a midnight sobbing... My friend Cim and my mom both reassured me I'd make a great mom and that my feelings were perfectly normal, and mostly due to hormones. Todd got me flowers and a fluffy teddy bear (I don't get flowers very often, Cim's comment was that I must not cry very much). The major anxiety is gone and doubt is waning, slowly.... I guess I still have 7 months or so to get used to all of these feelings, eh.
3 comments:
Hormones are fuuuunnnn
Hormonal gal - you! We all doubt our mothering abilities. I have a ten year old and I still doubt myself on a constant basis. The thing about this is - if you aren't questioning your abilities I would be concerned. Just relax and enjoy each pregnancy symptom you fall victim... This will prepare you for the lack of control you will experience for the rest of your life! Hope you are feeling better - didn't know you were sick. Tylenol sucks!!!
You so silly Wy, you're a great person with a big heart. You will be an awesome mother. But of course, it is hormonal, sounds like you are going through a lot of things. I miss you and love you. Wish I was still around you.
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